Friday, 23 November 2012

Nov.

23/11 rain keep falling down
this never ending sorrow feeling.

今天很用力的去後悔自己在英國做的決定
心跟頭都一樣沈重
最後放棄沒去找工作
只知申請倫藝的學校
沒注意到簽證申請
半放棄式的回到了台灣

妳都盡了力了不要在苛責自己了
活的輕鬆快活才是保證你下次不再鑽牛角尖
看得到事情出口的方法

等下要跟叫我要用四肢指頭鍛鍊自己的人說話
也許心情會好ㄧ些

把決定的事情做滿做到好便沒有後悔的閒時間ok!


23/Nov

一個人難過的極致,便是不哭也能悄悄抽搐
然後當聽到情歌都不再心顫時 代表碎的東西儼然已經復原了

不知道我爺爺 現今的情況
跟小時後的我用力的跟老天爺祈禱有無關係
我跟老天爺祈禱千萬不要從我身邊帶走我最愛的爺爺

爺爺現在身體健朗 但是記憶力卻如同漏斗慢慢流失
他剛剛說
身體照顧好最重要喔

好爺爺你也要把身體照顧好喔

然後有空回來喔
好我有空就回去看你
妳旁邊那是甚麼聲音?

是吃飯的地方的音樂

身體照顧好最重要喔


有空回來喔
身體照顧好最重要

然後有空回來喔


Saturday, 20 October 2012

Oct

19th 我回家了 台北市晴天

我的第一場戀愛剛過適用期就結束了

23th 雨天 我希望從今以後都是雨天

Hi my first love it  is so tired to loving you.
and that Thursday morning  if only I knew it would be our last one, I won't lock the door so submissively  I will ran out and kiss you good bye.


I am in love with a boy, he is devil , man and the boy. The man date me. I try my best to feed the devil. 
The boy always looking far a way, far away looking for the girl in his dream. 
Not me who standing naked in front of him. 

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

九月

19th /sep 只穿背心會很冷的秋天來了

倫敦是
通勤 免費報紙 上班族好多
fashion week
男人說 不懂我為什麼可以喜歡他
在他對我做了那麼多奇怪的事後

因為你符合我的犯罪測寫
一些些符合 我都深感欣慰了

Tuesday, 14 August 2012

Aug

14th /aug good weather
"There were but a few weak, silvery stars."
                                    The heart is a lonely hunter. Carson McCullers
一句美麗的文字
我想花時間看我喜歡的書啦
不想躺在床上一直反覆思考那混蛋加變態

28/ Aug 風和日麗 好天氣

On your birthday, my best gift for you is:
Let you love yourself more.
女孩聽著給自己往後25 年都受用的禮物.
你沒做錯任何事,人生本就不盡完美
而妳很努力的活就足夠了
stop reflecting on everything.
Just you, are enough.

Best wishes
xxChia

Sunday, 1 July 2012

july

1th / July sunny windy showering what can you complain its London
呼最壞的已經過去, 喝口水喘口氣
她非常年輕且無憂無慮,我身兼重擔 並且年輕並不是會用來形容的字句.
因為我方重生, 根本是一個全新的靈魂
我知道隨著時間更迭我會褪去層層重擔
因為這是宇宙的運行 潮起潮落 生生不息 我知道最壞的已經過去


10/July its raining cats and dogs out there
Called my old man the other day.
He said to me your old room is exactly the same as you left.
We didn't touch it at all.
Come back and you can live there still .........
and if you come back,....., dot 't go out again.


It's the freedom i crave.
I would rather die then go back there.
I am sorry
my old man.

I am drawn to the sea.
kindred |ˈkindrid|

noun [treated as pl. ]
one's family and relations.
• relationship by blood ties of kindred.
adjective [ attrib. ]
similar in kind; related books on kindred subjects.
ORIGIN Middle English : from kin -red (from Old English rǣden [condition] ), with insertion of -d- in the modern spelling through phonetic development (as inthunder).個着海我找到了kindred of mine.一些跟我喜歡相似東西的人們..
29/July So this is LOVE.the thing i have been spent 25 years to wonder what it will look like.Sothis is how it looks like.


Tuesday, 5 June 2012

June

18/june
"he is not even a good person,
don't throw yourself to him anymore
he will not even there to catch you
you will just tremble and fall."

17th/June 小太陽多雲似乎是西洋父親節
今早跟阿嬤打電話
她說要包粽子然後寄給我
我又上當了
然後她又開始她讀特的天馬行空
跟我說着某個加拿大人被她好朋友吃掉的事
我對她說
安啦我不會被吃掉

5th/June  better then raining anyway
忘記紀錄這個感人的展了 其實是27/may 去看的

Scott's last expedition.




25/june 好天氣啦
我這人優點不多
唯一的就是   never give up
and 
what should i have for breakfast! 

28/June 
一個人去Brighton  聽Kate Nash
海天一片讓我眼睛失了焦
the blue blue sky and the green ocean green 
let me eyes lose the focus.


Sunday, 6 May 2012

May 的流水

3th /May
first date with him, he left . without a word about what's going to happen.

6th/May chilly weather
 The reasons to love london.
1. while its already spring it still feel like November.
but the trees and flower didn't forgot to bloom.
outside the tube, the blue bell pop up from the weeds.
On the way to Old street, the tree blossom with blue flower which i have never seen before.

London, its a city you can easy fall in love with.
but don't think it will love you back..
at least not the way you expected.

13/may Mother's Sunday    / Sunny thank you London.
Today is mothers day in Taiwan.
i Called my ganny this morning ,
its 5pm in taiwan,
she said she is cooking fish for my 菇 who went out for swimming.
i said i'm hungry.
she said:
 來我煎魚給妳吃 :)

15/may  mother F raining still!

I stole his "A clockwork orange" pin.
I was a bit surprise when  how panic he was when he found out the pin that suppose to site on his shoulder was gone.
I felt a sudden guilt.
But I couldn't tell him the pin is just right under my pillow,  I knew that, because I put it there, when he went to the toilet.

He rushed to the door , without saying goodbye, I shouted out : I'm sorry for your pin.
The shoulder pad of his leather jacket, swing in the air like a beaten soldier who just lost the war and keep his head sinking like a stone.

I think i will give him back the pin, when I able to claim my heart back, I'll give it back to him ,the same day.